Sometimes I wonder what would be so different if I actually had encouragement? Just a smidge. Just a little. If anything, I feel like I am always the one who is pulling people out of the downward spiral that is self doubt. Man. It's crazy. I watch all these skate videos and see certain groups of people and think, "Holy shit, these guys are good." I figured it out. They feed off each other. They push each other. I look at the majority of things I have done on my board, that were worth it's salt were because I was amped on the session. I was FEEDING off of those around me. They are out there trying to push themselves just a little farther than before.
It's a little tiresome being the motivator. It makes me feel like a wound down clock at times. Ok, scratch that. I feel like a self winding clock. Because half the time there is no one around to pump me up. Too many, "I can't's" and "I used too's"...fuck that shit.
You can. But you won't try. You might, but you'll never know. The list goes on and on.
They say skateboarding is a one man sport, if you even wanna call it one, but it's so much better with someone out there pushing just as hard as you are.
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